"Go away, no one lieks you Ashley!"
"...your right....But at least I'm not annoying and I have some who care what happens"
He is right.Not many people like me in my school or around here.I don't know why.Looks or personalty?I dont care anymore.Say it all you want,
I'm not going to leave this place.

I may not be amazing.I may not try to attract a boy by looking pretty and being all weird or do the EXACT same personalty and act the same to be with them.I act myself.
Yes.That might be one reason why people think I'm weird. I might not be the smartest or wanting to be working with someone else.So?What you care?
You'd only use me to get answers that odds are wrong.

I like being differnt.When I was little I was cute and not so shy and not affraid to be myself.But something happend to me, to be not affraid of others oppion of me.I try hard to fit in, thats all I ever desired.
I migth have a lot of friends in school, but, which ones are the real ones?
 
People think they know me so well.

  Likes Sonic
 Sucks at math
Hates achool
 Spends lots of time on technolgy
Plays soccer

have you ever thought..GEE you don't know me for a star.I have more then that, but some people just don't even want to be around me becasue of how I look.And they judge. Some actually use me becasue I want them hapy and all.


    Why don't you judge me by how I act instead of how I look.I'll explain to you how I look.

I wear a ponytail.But,since i'm bad at them, my longs bangs stick out of it in my face.Floppy like sorta. Braces and glasses.Woren down shoes.I have some acene.I bite my nails.

  Yeah, I might not be the prettiest in the world, But I am one of the kindest. No one judges me by personalty, It feels like I'm on my own soemtimes. No one understands how special DA is to me.
And they proably never will.I don't care. As long as I know that there are people who care about me, at school AND DA Then I'll be fine. I've had hurtful things said to me and some rumors spread. But, as long as my friends know the truth, I know i'm fine. I cry all alone.So no one see's.becasue I'm affriad to see outcome of my tears that go down my face. On DA I try to talk to some, but they ignore me becasue I use bases.I can think of at least 3 deviants that do that to me so much and don't really like me. I hate crying alone...Becasue all I have to cheer me up is me.I hold in tears if I want to cry until i'm alone. I don't like to feel like i'm alone.You see...when I cry I wish some of you guys are there..By my side. Hearing your voices...Seeing you....Huging you.
 So, I just imagine you guys there by me.If you guys want to stop replying thats fine.I talk about the people who never want to reply to me.Never.Or talk to me.Or botehr with me.I bet those few arn't even reading this unless their going to critise me and go like "Well thats life" or "We don't really care about you"
   I am rying to find the way but  it is so diffcult....


This is for all those who think they know me and think they know every small detail.Well how much did you ACTUALLY know about me?I do not consider sucide EVER or killing others or hurting others. All i like to do is live, make others happy, and see a smile. I don't judge by your looks,race,gender, age any thing like that.i judge you by your personatly.Some judge even by voice.But I don't....I only judege you by how you treat others and act.Most of you..Are the sweeste people I want to meet in real life...so badly.

                                                                                                            WHEN SHE CRIES
                                                                                                                       By Britt Nicole

And everydays...the same she fights, to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray
She'll be just fine, casue I know, he hears her when she cries
And everydays...the same she fights, to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray
She'll be just fine, casue I know, he hears her when she cries


Sometiems I feel this way.Right now I am not that sad...But...Yeah.
  Anyways, for those who read I know you care